Outside of being able to learn songs and pieces by ear on my cello with minutes, to some extent, I have a lot of trouble making the connection of listening, and writing. I can name notes easily. I ace all of my dictation quizzes in music theory. However, when it comes to words, I always have trouble of processing. This makes it a real problem when the professor decides to just go full-out lecture without writing anything down on the board. Just then and there, I give up taking notes, and just try and absorb the information I'm hearing. Sometimes it works, sometimes it doesn't.
One thing I should also mention, is that I have autism. Keep in mind, this does not make me any less intelligent than the average human being. Even with something like autism, I am able to comprehend like most people. However, they don't call it a disability for no reason. My mind doesn't exactly work the way it does for anyone else. In a way, I guess you can say that it's programmed differently. Rewired, even. I go on a bit of a one-track system, and multitasking is not my strong point. At least with something to copy down on the board or projector, I can look up and down. With listening, I have to do two things at once,
So why do I have no problem with music, when it comes to listening and dictation? I honestly don't know the answer to that. I believe it has something to do with the fact that language has all of these syllables, tones, and meanings to each word, that is being processed at once, whereas with music, it's a little more straightforward and not as complicated.
Anyways, back up to the whole "one-track system", this makes it hard for me to do homework as well. When I have an assignment on my mind, I will work on it until it's finished. This tends to bite me in the butt, as I've had to turn in things late, and that didn't exactly help my grade.
On top of that, there is one other thing that does give me a bit of a challenge, in daily life, If you were to meet me, you would probably not think of me as a very talkative person. Now, it's not exactly because I don't like to talk. If you couldn't tell by these blogs, I actually love to talk about certain things. Aside from shyness, one of the main reasons why I'm not exactly talkative, is because I have slight trouble communicating my thoughts into speech. I usually have to think about what I have to say, before I say it. That's why I prefer typing, is because I can think about every sentence. I've practiced at it though, and I'm much better than I was before. Still, if I were asked a question, I would need a moment to process it, and then sort out my own thoughts, and then answer.
This tends to cause for panic in the classroom. I get called on, and I fear of taking too long, so either I end up saying "I don't know", or try to make an educated guess (which never works out well when you're under a severe amount of stress). Once in music theory, I was asked to identify the fifth in a B flat scale. Now, I easily know the answer to that, which is F. I spent my four years in highschool, wasting my musical knowledge on learning that the third note in any arpeggio is the fifth, and I knew that the third note of a B flat arpeggio is F, which is the fifth to a B flat scale. However, somewhere in the cluster that was me trying to get my answer out as quickly as possible, I somehow got B flat mixed with A flat, and so I ended up saying "E flat". Thankfully, people were kind enough not to laugh. The professor asked again, but I was too embarrassed to answer, so he had to call on someone else to answer.
But heck, that's probably just stuff everyone deals with, and I'm complicating things at this point. I don't really know at this point.
Well, with all that said, thank you all for putting up with the wall of text that is today's blog, and have a good night.
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